So that was a doozee! Typed pages for the blog tonight and then I blew it away accidently! WOOOOPS!
So --- Back in January of 2004, we knew that my bio-dad was going to prison. We had no idea how long, we hadn't seen him face to face in weeks, but knew that his fate would be set on this day. I was also really looking forward to the closing of a chapter in my life. The abuse was over, he was going to prison, I could get on with my life. I was so excited!!!
BOY WAS I WRONG. The new life hadn't begun because he still had CONTROL over my life. The control he had over my life and me was unbearable at times. Watching over my shoulder, anxiety attacks driving down the road. I knew I was safe, he was in prison for at least 11 years, he wasn't anywhere he could get to me or hurt me anylonger, but because I hadn't forgiven I was unable to release --or open the goods of my life. I wasn't able to function most of the time. I took a long time to get there. It didn't happen over night, but it was soooo worth it.
When you finally let go, when you finally release and forgive---not for them, not to trust them, not to say what they did wasn't wrong---but for your own health, for your own life, and for you to be able to survive YOU WILL BE FREE, YOU WILL BE IN CONTROL, YOU HAVE NOW STOMPED THE ABUSE INTO THE GROUND.
It is so easy for our pasts to control our futures. Let go of your past so that you can embrace your future!
Love to you all, praying for lives to be changed.
So --- Back in January of 2004, we knew that my bio-dad was going to prison. We had no idea how long, we hadn't seen him face to face in weeks, but knew that his fate would be set on this day. I was also really looking forward to the closing of a chapter in my life. The abuse was over, he was going to prison, I could get on with my life. I was so excited!!!
BOY WAS I WRONG. The new life hadn't begun because he still had CONTROL over my life. The control he had over my life and me was unbearable at times. Watching over my shoulder, anxiety attacks driving down the road. I knew I was safe, he was in prison for at least 11 years, he wasn't anywhere he could get to me or hurt me anylonger, but because I hadn't forgiven I was unable to release --or open the goods of my life. I wasn't able to function most of the time. I took a long time to get there. It didn't happen over night, but it was soooo worth it.
When you finally let go, when you finally release and forgive---not for them, not to trust them, not to say what they did wasn't wrong---but for your own health, for your own life, and for you to be able to survive YOU WILL BE FREE, YOU WILL BE IN CONTROL, YOU HAVE NOW STOMPED THE ABUSE INTO THE GROUND.
It is so easy for our pasts to control our futures. Let go of your past so that you can embrace your future!
Love to you all, praying for lives to be changed.
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