— Maya Angelou
Howdy you all....hope this finds everyone doing well tonight.
The weather is toying with us in the Seattle area....nice and now...its going to turn bad, bad, bad---rain thunder lightening...wooo wee fun!
So today I spent a couple hours in the dentist chair having a tooth extracted....as I sat there and tugged and pulled and cracked and drilled---I really go to thinking about healing and coming to peace with the abuse that you have endured.
In my situation my bio-dad played such mind games. He would come in my room at night when everyone was sleeping to do as he wished or to try and then the next day the morning would come and everything was honkey dorey. He would want everything to be normal, like as though nother ever happened the night before. This was his typical way of doing things.
He would joke and laugh and we would play the game. But the pain continue to grow and fester and eat away at my insides. How could this man who is suppose to protect us and provide for us, be so mean and hateful, then turn around and want to be the best dad on the planet. Really??
Just like my tooth extraction, if we as survivors don't go through the steps to heal so that we can then in turn help others heal, we will never ever feel good about ourselves, who we are, and even more so we will never be able to forgive.
Take the steps to healing....BE BRAVE......do what you need to do to find your voice, and then find your ULTIMATE FORGIVENESS....the forgiveness isn't for them....it's for you so that you can keep living!!!
Please read this article from Oprah, Dr. Howard Frankin, PhD---steps for healing check it out.Love to all, praying for lives to be changed.